In steps my journey brought me back home. From Amsterdam to Tripoli to Bamako. The first aircraft filled with tourist and interesting people, each in it’s launch of a new discovery. Or like me on my way home. Yet it felt like, as the trip progressed, I went back once again to a world which had to be rediscovered. A language with sounds like it was the first time I heard them and the social life that I had to get used to again. It wasn’t like I felt uncomfortable, rather excited and on adventure. A adventure that didn’t found it’s resting point yet.
At the airport I saw that my first recognition site was waiting for me. Siaka my best friend who always picked me up on arrival. As always, I look forward to this moment after saying goodbye to my beloved family and friends. As horrible the moment of goodbye always is, the moment of encounter brings some peace into the feelingsometime bizarre choices that I make every time. I now know that the moment of departure will always be the same and I will have disordered thoughts like I’m a selfish loner who can leave everything behind like it is nothing. I know that some people do take me responsible for their pain of not having me around but I can not express how difficult this is for me. The adventure that I fallow has a goal, a goal that I know can change some life’s and I am helping with the establishment of a undeveloped country.
My planes feel fresh again and I know that I can do it! Even with little money in my pocket. Only my motivation and security created by “The Course in Miracles”, Gary Renard his books and the “Secret” that I see as my guide. The quote from Martin Luther King, Jr. “Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase” gives me courage. There is nothing that I can’t achieve if I just dream, believe and act on what comes on my path. I discovered all of this in relation with my ex-boyfriend who I cherish dearly. Without him all of this wouldn’t be possible. Without him I did not learn to read those books and did not learned to live the life that I’m living.
Wish me luck …